As soon as you're born you start dying

In the absence of love, you don't find hate or hardness. You don't find ice or blackness. You don't have to act as tough as you do to prove a point to people about everything you've been through. Jesus christ! I am so sick of playing the role of "the blanket" and wrapping myself around people to make them feel better about themselves. I hate constantly reminding people how amazing they are to everyone else while no matter what I do, they continue to hate themselves, and leave me to pick up the pieces. 

Yeah, you know, you really don't find these things in the absence of love. 

Love surrounds you day by day. So get the fuck over this "I'm so alone, I'm so hard because I KNOW what pain is.".  I just believe that the only thing we ever really experience in life is pain and without, I think that humans would crumble. People die, people suffer, people regret things they wish they did, or what they hadn't said before the bitter end. 

All you can do is embrace yourself, and laugh, and love, and live. More than anything, you have to accept that people love each other sexually, mentally, emotionally, and paternally, and the petty bullshit should be saved and over looked by people because the dramatic nonsense that surrounds everyone I know is so dumb. 

I don't really know where I'm going with this. It started snowing last night and I haven't seen the sun in days. I think I might be getting deep and depressing for a reason.